Week One

A week ago yesterday I left Washington... A week ago today I was leaving Montana! The last week has had more ups and downs in such a short amount of time then I think I have ever had in my life! It has been crazy! BUT... I have learned a few things...

1.) You find out who your true friends are and who stands by you NO MATTER WHAT!

2.) Sometimes the people that you expect to step up and support and defend you and be there for you... are the ones that aren't. And the ones you DON'T expect it from, are the ones who are.

3.) The friends and family that don't support you, will cause you hurt, BUT, you don't need them to be happy. No matter how important they are or how much a part of your life they are, if they don't support you and don't want to be there for you, you can live with out them. And if you think you can't, you can, so get over it.

4.) The SECOND you decide to stop living your life and making decisions to make EVERYONE else happy, and start making decisions to make yourself happy, you are definitely happier! However, this is where the losing friends and family come in to effect because there will be some one, if not multiple someones, who will not like this.

5.) Lastly, I have learned to cherish those who are there for me; MORE then I use to cherish them. And my new goal is to make sure they know how much I cherish them.

Allyson has been an AMAZING friend through everything; dealing with my emotional breakdowns and my goofy/ loopy fun times. She has supported me emotionally and is letting me stay with her. (She hopes I just move in!). I have some AMAZING friends back home, four to be exact, that are incredibly supportive and don't get annoyed of constantly reminding me everything will be okay (or if they do get annoyed they don't tell me!).

Every day I feel like I am getting stronger. I still have a lot of pain from two people giving up on me and deciding I am wrong. But I am slowly getting past that. It's amazing still, through all of the turmoil and ups and downs and craziness, overall and deep down, I am so much happier then I have been in the last three years. I am excited about the rest of my life. I can't wait to see what it has in store. Not to mention, I have the best blessing I could have... and she is hairy and has short legs and a cute fox-like face. She, like a kid would do, keeps me going!

I started my job over here waiting tables. It was much easier then the Spaghetti Factory and EVERYONE is super nice there. It's right on the lake with a gorgeous view! Hopefully I can catch on and get the hang of things quickly. Lucy is doign well, still adjusting to this life and the humidy (today it's supposed to be 91%!). Her favorite time is bed time when it's just her and I and no screaming baby or dogs. She has already had a tick on her! It's been an adventure for her as well!

I miss everyone at home and love everyone!

~T